Hi Anna,
I am sorry to hear that your menory starts to fail (or is it just a temporary side effect the very stressful actions governements all over the world inflict on their citicens. I am losing my keys, cellphone, etc all the time because of this :-/).
For me, the first bad thing that showed that something does not square on SE, was the suspension of Ron Maimon in the context of the moderator elections on Physics SE 2012 together with the brutal and very negative interference of SE staff and people from all over the network with the site.
My highly upvoted post got deleted, Arnold s attempt to help still remains for now ...
https://physics.meta.stackexchange.com/q/2746/2751
In the course of time, it got more and more clear that even though they superficially claim otherwise, the SE network is not the right avenue for a high-level academic in spirit physics site to thrive ...
The SE company seems to be screwing things up more and more as it seems
https://meta.stackexchange.com/q/340906/184300
which is fortunately no longer our problem ;-)
Cheers